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i guess all the color is gone and all my songs been sung
so just a ghost in a shell
or a flame in hell left to stoke fires with just a bundle of sticks
or a sharp flint rock bashed on the side of your new self
if you can call it that
has been your old self just going back to the habits
time does not relieve you
nor anyhting that you may try to
there is no moving on
there is just moving through
and through and through you're still you
no matter what you do
i'll be me and you'll still be you
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how do you get better i
01:28
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got to s(t)ay
04:09
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there's only one way out
there's only one highway
goes from top to bottom
and i guess it's going my way
and at the end is a whole new world
and i guess im changing, i guess im different
i guess im giving it a whole new girl
on the way i'll see new things
by and by we'll become new things
and even though the old might be changing
some things must go
some things must stay the same
don't think i'll stay that way
don't think i'll start to change
but if i do you know that's just what i got to say
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you'll be you
07:33
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is there anything that you know now that you didn't know then?
or are you just kidding yourself?
is it easier to regret who you are now
then take time to sift through relapse?
repent shame repent
repent shame regret
repent shame and shame again
all these things feel the same
they never seem to leave
you hold onto your hope
it's just okay to grieve
some things you lose track of some things are just lost
some way you've gone out and found yourself aloft
"i want" is not in the words you now know
"forget" and "live let" and all those other ones
will the steel wire uncurl its grasp around your fingertips
or will you sink in til they're bloody, barely anything?
will you reach out say "hey, whats up?"
or will you let them fade until they're used up
no one's used to you
everything is new
you've got time to find something else to do
until it's out
and you're different anyhow
you are not anything but all you know how to be
so let it come - the feelings as they do
i'll be me and you'll be you
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how do you get better ii
03:22
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...anyway
04:14
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it's just the birds outside whistling tunes while you lie there
waiting for the next sounds to stop until you can fall asleep
it's how every night goes waiting til morning to take you there
it's like working overnights is hardly human but you have to make a living somehow
it's like working this job may kill you but you're still living anyway
it's like how every day just becomes night then turns back to day
it's like how everything you feel just feels unreal or just ingenuine
it's like how every song you sing doesn't seem right or feel like you're getting it
it's like how every time you try to feel you're just gonna end up there again
so you try to not try but in not trying you're just not getting anywhere
so you gotta try anyway
you've got to try anyway, anywhere, anything, anyplace
[these are all just variations on the same idea and i don't think im doing anything. my hand is also cramping so im going to stop there]
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the bird call
00:57
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you know
02:51
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in the cold, you know
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you don't i
04:41
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faraway friends/ruined
04:59
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your words: like gone to the wind, like faraway friends.
everything changes.
you are changed
you are new
you still got time to do
time to have
time to hold
time won't do what it's told
and you grow old
and you skip town
but it doesn't change who you are now
or what you were then
you tried to get out
but have no fear, all comes to down
down spirals like silk
your breasts pour out their milk
your body dried and ruined
you have nothing left in these ruins
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you don't ii
02:08
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mis-independent
03:48
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you will be the one who goes when it's gone
how will i grow, will i grow old?
will grow to stone?
shriveled up buttercup
yeah "build me up"
like it all goes, you only come: when it snows, in the morning, in the evening
it will haunt you while you sleep in
you are still the same as what you could've been
and it's not unlike the ways that it all lives in
i miss feeling safe
i miss liking it
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you don't iii
01:02
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driving but im never getting there
im losing track of even being here
or what it is to feel like you are one again
and im giving up faith
im staying up too late
because things haunt my head
im ashamed afraid and sad
and it hurts to stay in bed all day long
if you got nothing to do you got to do it.
if you have nothing to say why not just say it?
if you've got a hope inside why cant you show it?
if you got a life to lve you got to live it.
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from now to: hallelujah! Vermont
processing in the moment. often error ridden. often upsetting. often the most honest i feel.
from now to: hallelujah! recommends:
Inner connection
by Lady Queen Paradise
clara is someone i've always taken great inspiration from, sometimes quoting and repurposing the lyrics that stick with me or melodies that haunt. inner connection is a magnum opus
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eight steps in the recent moves of
by jiaqing wilson-yang/kit wilson-yang/chris yang
i hope i can write a song as sinkingly tender as what i meant to say some day
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Sink / Swim
by Cutting Room Floor
i go back to this and listen to it all the way through a few times a year and hear something new every time
go to albumIf you like from now to: hallelujah!, you may also like:
Water's Here In You
by Babehoven
Babehoven returns with another record of indie folk songs about love, connection, and the fragility of human relationships.
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Loosely structured around the Pokémon game of the same name, “Fire Red” is hushed and layered indie folk.
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The songs on Babehoven's newest album approach grief and loss with humor and rage.
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